seekerofhappiness

hiding inside myself...

2009-03-08T16:30:00.007-07:00

on my way to work this morning kenny rankin's song played in the radio. its been years i haven't heard this song... so while listening to it made me cry. it brought back so much memories.

so to the person who i loved dearly, i know that you are gone now. your voice alone brought me so much comfort... you will always be my solace... i miss u

happy hearts day!

2009-02-13T21:02:00.010-08:00

i did not expect this! with all the fights and all... i didn't think you would still be inspired to get me anything...
thank you so much for the gerberas! i really appreciate all your efforts. you're so sweet babe... i love you!

pag-ibig lang...

2009-02-08T00:50:00.003-08:00

thanks for all the memories...

pag-ibig lang
gary granada

Ako ang dulo at ikaw ang umpisa
Dal'wa ang dako ng landas nating dal'wa
Ika'y apoy, ako ay tubig
Duda ko'y iyong pananalig
Ang tiyak sa iyo ay aking pangamba

Ako'y maghapon at ikaw ay magdamag
Ika'y matapang kung saan ako duwag
Ang iyong huli ay siya kong una
Madali mo'y di ko kaya
At ang aking sige ay siya mong huwag

At pag tayo'y nag-uusap
Parang lupa't alapaap
Nagtatalo ang sigaw at ang bulong
Sala sa ikli at haba
Parang timog at hilaga
Di mahuhulaan kung saan hahantong

Bakit hanggang ngayon tayo ay narito
At may kutob akong kapwa natin gusto
Paano mo maipaliwanag
Kung paano di natitinag
At pagkakaiba ay di naging hadlang
Dahil kaya pag magkasama'y masaya
May kaagapay o kaya
Baka naman pag-ibig lang

(Interlude)

Sala sa ikli at haba
Parang timog at hilaga
Di mahuhulaan kung saan hahantong

Bakit hanggang ngayon tayo ay narito
At may kutob akong kapwa natin gusto
Paano mo maipaliwanag
Kung paano di natitinag
At pagkakaiba ay di naging hadlang
Dahil kaya pag magkasama'y masaya
May kaagapay o kaya
Baka naman pag-ibig lang

the flower farm in tagaytay, fireworks in makati...

2009-01-04T23:07:00.015-08:00

after a week of being away. coming back here in guam. i was already feeling nostalgic. i miss manila... and i miss my baby so much. it was such a short week and how i wish i'd stayed a few more days :( but i'm still grateful that i was able to spend our aniv&ny together. for me, thats what counts... just being together... and being happy. here i am back to work... back to my boring life again. haayy....

i finally went to the flower farm in tagaytay. its been years that i've been wanting to go there and see the different types of flowers. i so love flowers... esp. the daisies, mums and the gerberas. so here are pictures i've taken in tagaytay and few in new years eve.

around the island

2008-11-22T01:17:00.010-08:00

we went around the island today because two of my coworkers from manila are in guam for work. so just sharing you pictures i've taken.

no one in the world...

2008-10-07T21:49:00.001-07:00

thanks for this song babe!

No One in the World
Anita Baker

I look back on all those good times
we once shared and I must have been blind
just to think id find someone new
one who love me better than you
well it may come as a surprise but the
loneliness has opened my eyes
I’ve tried every love I could find
still I can't get you out of my mind

cause there's no one in the world who’s gonna hold me
no one in the world who’s gonna to love me baby no one in the world who’s gonna love me like you do baby
eve

ry time I’m with somebody I’m
loving you and I wanna run
I wanna run back to your love again
aint no one in the world (no one in the world)
loves me like you do yeah yes

are you happy now with your life
well believe I’m breaking inside
for something sure that I could not see
I had it all when you were with me, baby baby

no one in the world who’s gonna hold me
no one in the world who’s gonna love me baby
no one in the world is going to love me like you do baby
every time I’m with somebody I’m
loving you and I wanna run
I wanna run back to your love again
aint no one in the world (no one in the world)
loves me like you do yeah

please take me back baby (please take me back)
said I can't go on (I can't go on)
I’m not happy in my life without you
I’ll do whatever it takes
I’ve got to get you back with me again (gotta get you back here again)
I realize I need you here in my life

no one in the world (no one)
no one in the world (no body loves me like you)
no one in the world ,(like, you do baby)
every time you’ve got the love that I need
everybody knows how to love me
aint no one in the world (no one in the world)
in this world (ah, oooo)
in this world (ah, oooo, oooooooooooo)
no one in the world

someone like you...

2008-09-30T04:18:00.008-07:00

to the person who has been there for me and made me realize true happiness...
thanks for all the love, patience and understanding... this song is for u! ilu...

Someone Like You
Shawn Colvin

I've been searching a long time
For someone exactly like you
I've been travelling all around the world
Waiting for you to come through.
Someone like you makes it
All worth while
Someone like you keeps
Me satisfied. Someone exactly
Like you.

I've been travellin' a hard road
Lookin' for someone exactly like you
I've been carryin' my heavy load
Waiting for the light to come
Shining through.
Someone like you makes it
All worth while
Someone like you keeps
Me satisfied. Someone exactly
Like you.

I've been doin' some soul searching
To find out where you're at
I've been up and down the highway
In all kinds of foreign lands
Someone like you... etc.

I've been all around the world
Marching to the beat of a different
Drum.
But just lately I have
Realized
The best is yet to come.

davao

2008-09-30T01:17:00.000-07:00

la union, baguio, and tagaytay

2008-09-30T00:53:00.007-07:00

how nice it is to be a kid again

2008-09-29T03:14:00.005-07:00

my niece who just turned 2 years old last month seems to like to hang out in my room often. she would come to my room and when she sees me using my laptop she would ask "tita ann, i want to see monkey or i want to see neopets." when i start to show her pictures of paul frank or neopets... she would laugh so hard just seeing their pictures. she would at times say 'i like this... this...this one... ooh i like this..." endlessly. and i start to think, how nice it is to be a kid again. no problems to worry and stress about.

yup... hand bag dilemma it is!

2008-09-29T02:14:00.009-07:00

my gucci messenger bag that i had for about five years has finally gave up on me :( it was one of the few that i bought for myself in my first year of work right after college. since then, it has been my favorite. been very dependable and travelled with me all throughout my trips.

now been having problems on what hand bag to buy. i still prefer a messenger bag or a cross body bag but the past few weeks i have been searching on the internet for the right bag for me but choices... choices... choices... so stressing.

i cant make up my mind. haayyy.... oh ya, here's the result of that quiz. thanks for sharing!

What Your Handbag Says About You

You are concerned with how you appear. Projecting your high status is important to you.

You tend to be relaxed throughout the day. You are naturally at peace.

You tend to be relaxed but alert. You keep your eye out for anything unusual.

You tend to be on high alert. You are very aware of your surroundings.

You are a low maintenance person. You can adapt to a variety of situations.

You are open and comfortable with who you are. You don't hide anything.

You are a very creative person. Your life tends to be a whirlwind, but you always seem to pull it together.

You are practical and down to earth. You tend to be a rather reserved and quiet person.

You are a very unique and special person. There's no one else who is anything like you.

What Does Your Handbag Say About You?

flower hoppin at dangwa

2007-10-16T23:19:00.000-07:00

i've been to the philippines so many times, but its only now i found out about this place. im such a flower lover, especially gerberas specifically. i was so flower happy and photo flower happy that i took several pictures while flower hoppin at every stand i go to. i so love it there. seein flowers just give me the smiles. if u guys seen the movie 'bed of roses' u'l understand where im coming from. i really wanna open a flower shop business in the future.

here's some shots of my trip to dimasalang.

love bohol

2007-09-08T00:51:00.000-07:00

went to bohol & cebu two months ago. i actually enjoyed it more than in boracay. our driver and the tour guide were so nice. had such a good conversations with them. i found out the tour guide is the lead vocal in their band. i asked him to give me a sample of their music. he actually did. i guess his aiming for that big tip. hehehehe

but anyway, i really enjoyed the whole trip. bohol has so much to offer.

here are few things why i love bohol.

chocolate hills.

dolphin watchin, panglao, bohol.

river cruisin, in loboc, bohol.

beaches, bohol beach club.

tarsiers.

starfish.

monkey.

everything you can find in bohol. alot of animal sightings hehehehe.

dalampasigan

2007-08-13T17:27:00.000-07:00

past. hurts. pains.

present. recovering. learning.

future. hopes. aspirations. optimistic.

dalampasigan

hindi ko talaga maarok
kung bakit
kahit batid mo man
kung gaano
ang lawak at layo
ng ating pagitan
ay pilit mo pa rin
na inaabot
at sinasakop
ang dalampasigan
ng aking puso...

siguro nga ika'y sabik
sa sarap
ng tubig sa dagat
at sa rumaragasang
pagsinta...

ngunit sana'y
alam mo
na hindi napipilit
ang puso...

kahit gaano man
ang tindi
ng iyong pagpupursigi
sa paglangoy
papalapit,
ay tila
mas lalo pang
lumalayo...

siguro'y
sumobra sa tigib
at lakas
ang iyong paglangoy,
paroon at parito
upang ako
ay abutin.

ang alon
ng iyong
pagsinta...

nakadudurog...
nakawawasak...
at nakapapagod...

nakapagtatakang ika'y
di man lamang tumigil
at makaramdam
ng kahinaan
at pagod
sa patuloy
na paglangoy...

samantalang ako'y
natuyuan na ng lakas
ng pag-unawa
at pagkalinga
sa iyong damdaming
patuloy na tumitibok,
lumalapit
at humahampas
sa aking dalampasigan...

na mas lalong
dumudurog
sa aking pusong
matagal nang
winasak
ng mga alon
na gaya ng sa iyo...
na ewan ko ba
kung nais na
maglapat
ng lunas
sa pagtagas nito
o dumaragdag lamang
sa mga sugat...

ako'y nananatili
sa lupa
sapagkat
pagod na akong
lumangoy…
tulad mo,
ako rin ay
dumanas ng
matigib na
paglangoy sa dagat
at pag-abot
sa kay gandang
dalampasigan...

hindi naman
mahalaga
kung
yakapin ka
o hindi
ng dalampasigan mong
inaasam…

kailangan ding
mamahinga…
lalo na kung
ikaw lamang
ang marubdob
sa paglangoy...

mahirap malunod
at mabuhay
at malunod
na namang muli...

kailangan ding
tanggapin
kung dapat
nang tumigil
sa paglangoy
at manatili na lamang
sa iyong sariling
dalampasigan...

at isipin
kung ano bang
dalampasigan
ang talagang nais
at nararapat na
languyin…

o baka naman
ika'y para
sa tuyong lupa…

- LikidongApoy 09.14.06

tidal waves

2007-07-26T21:37:00.000-07:00

been having dreams with tidal waves in them. am a bit anxious of what it means. i guess its quite true what one dream expert said about it. but i just dont know how to conquer this stage in my life.

Here's the extract:

"Tidal waves, in dreams, tend to symbolise the emotions we try to repress or hold back to 'deal with' later. Water tends to represent our emotions: you can't put water under pressure without drastic results in the same way that you can't lock emotions into a box to deal with later. Tidal waves, in dreams, show the enormous power and pressure of our unconscious emotions.

Tidal waves may be formed from positive shut-away emotions (creativity, love, passion) just as often as from the emotions we think of as being negative (anger, grief, disappointment and so on).

In waking life we say we are 'dealing' or 'coping' with tough conditions, but really dealing and coping are really ways of ignoring and denying through trying to 'carry on' as before instead of address or acknowledge feelings and emotions which (we know) will result in change. How many times do we run away from change - even when it is positive change? That old, familiar safety zone can be so engrossing.

As the dreams show, running away (from emotions or from change) gets us nowhere but - stuck or paralysed in the status quo from fear of facing change ... or bowled over into a 'breakdown' as the wave, ignored for far too long, catches up and 'breaks'.

As the dreams show, facing the wave and showing no fear (facing fear) is the way to go. After this you ride the changes in life, roll with the flow and let the power of your life force take you to a better place .. a place where emotions and feelings are out of the box and therefore not subjected to mounting pressure.

As the ocean can also represent the unconscious, tidal waves can symbolise the forward movement of the unconscious, relentlessly insisting on our forward progress (personal development, self understanding, enlightenment) and showing us, through the dream action, where we are resisting this.

Sometimes your tidal wave dreams are clearer in retrospect. If you do not face the emotions, changes or forward movement the tidal waves urge, then life takes you to a place of forced-facing .. of crisis. Looking back you will see all the signs from your dreams and see where your dreams included hints on how to achieve change through gentler means than getting totally bowled over.

In this way, tidal wave dreams can be seen to be precognitive, as our unconscious is so far ahead of our conscious mind in expressing the shape of things to come.

A book could be written on this subject ... hmm. now, there's a thought!!!

So, next time you catch yourself saying, "I'm coping," or "I'm dealing with it," ... think again. If you're coping or dealing ... consider very carefully that you may, in fact, be NOT FACING."

(end of extract).

Jane Teresa Anderson
http://www.dream.net.au/forum/204dream_forum.cfm

where america's day begins...

2007-07-23T04:49:00.000-07:00

guam... home. beautiful.

miss u.

my lakbayan grade is C

2007-07-19T16:59:00.001-07:00

for someone who didnt grew up in the country i still got a passing score. next trip. palawan!!! ya.

My Lakbayan grade is C!

How much of the Philippines have you visited? Find out atLakbayan!

Created by Eugene Villar.

moving on...

2007-06-08T21:15:00.000-07:00

my heart is still in a process of "picking-up the pieces" brought by someone i once loved. my heart as of now has not fully recovered. there's still this bitterness in my heart... but i know in due time, my heart would eventually heal from past hurts and pains. and will be ready for that one great deserving person. i want to share with you a message of encouragement that i hold dear to my heart.

LOVING SOMEONE

Sometimes, in our relentless efforts to find the person we love we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out on so many beautiful things and simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish concerns. Go for the man of deeds and not for the man of words for you will find rewarding happiness not with the man you love but the man who loves you more. The best lovers are those who are capable of loving from a distance, far enough to allow the other person to grow, but never too far to feel the love deep within our being. To let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own HAPPINESS without expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but it is also setting yourself free from all fears, bitterness, hatred, and anger that you keep in your heart. Do not let the bitterness rare away your strength and weaken your faith, and never allow pain to dishearten you, but rather let you grow with wisdom in bearing it. You may have found peace in just loving someone from a distance not expecting anything in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today. There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and we just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon become a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just friendship, or the feelings he might have for u is just too far from how you love him. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves. You don't have to be bitter on love. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself. Believe me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving. Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow: If you lose love that doesn't mean that you failed in love. Cry, if you have to, but make it sure that the tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you. Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime. "When you lose someone... and you think you were the one who loved most, between the two of you... he lost more. For someday you can love someone the way that you loved him...But he will never be loved again the way that you did."